Achieving our dream of forming the family we longed for was not an easy path. It was full of difficult moments, doubts, fears, joys, disappointments, many sorrows that, thank God, had a happy ending.
After five years of marriage, we decided to grow our family, and like any couple, we started at the beginning, but months passed and I couldn’t get pregnant. Time was starting to work against us. We started by visiting my gynecologist, who wanted to investigate a bit and discovered that we would have difficulties achieving a pregnancy, so it would be better to put ourselves in the hands of an infertility specialist.
Our first meeting was not encouraging at all; rather, my husband and I felt as if we had accomplished nothing. We lost our direction, and our hopes faded a bit. However, based on recommendations from some friends, we consulted with other specialists in the field, in cities different from our own, but the disappointment increased. It was a very discouraging experience, so much so that we gave up on the topic for two years.
In any case, we had such a strong desire to start a family that we tried again. This time with a specialist in Medellín. It was as if the universe had something already prepared for us: we, at that moment without hope, demotivated, and sad, decided to channel all our dreams into this new attempt.
Since we live outside of Colombia, our first contact was via the Internet. We sent our entire medical history, and our new specialist was interested and put his whole heart into our case. That’s how we decided to return to our city for a few days to get routine checkups, and that’s where the whole story began.
Between one exam and another, laparoscopy, semen studies, blood tests, they found that both my husband and I had problems procreating. It was a hard blow for both of us, but at the same time, a door opened for us because there was a very high probability of achieving a pregnancy through insemination.
We carried out three procedures, plus the one we had done in another city. Each negative response was a door slammed in our hearts. The treatments made me irritable, sad, changed my hormonal system, I had many mixed feelings, added to the absence of my husband because, since we do not live in the city where we were undergoing treatment, I felt alone at those moments, despite having the support of my family.
The four failed attempts plunged me into deep sadness, but at the same time, I wanted to keep trying. We never thought of giving up; such was the love for those longed-for children that we were willing to go as far as we could physically, economically, and emotionally.
We made the decision to have in vitro fertilization instead of continuing with the insemination cycles suggested by the doctor, because, as he told us, the possibilities increased.
The preparation for in vitro has a duality, as it involves experiencing physical and emotional changes due to the hormonal load required by this treatment, which greatly changes a woman. But at the same time, there is hope, and each injection I applied meant being closer to embracing my baby. It was like feeling that I was already doing something for that child, our great love, our prolongation, I felt them as injections of life.
I cannot deny that you go through many moods, but that light we were looking for was our greatest encouragement.
Thus, when my body was ready to receive those little embryos, my children, we cried with happiness at feeling so close to our dream of starting our family, of waiting for a little angel that would illuminate our lives.
Everything went normally after the first in vitro. The wait was endless, each day was longer, and anxiety took hold of us. I wanted to cry, laugh, sing, dream, cry again.
Until the day of the pregnancy test arrived. I took the blood test in the morning, but the result would only be given to me in the afternoon. At the suggestion of my doctor and wanting to calm my nerves a bit, I took a home test, which was negative. The pain was so enormous that I can assure you that these letters are bathed in tears.
I broke down. My husband was out of the country, and it hurt not to have that hug, that kiss, those words of encouragement, but I took a breath again, prayed to God, and visited my doctor in the morning to plan the next in vitro. I still had to receive the result of the blood test, but since I had received negative answers so many times, I didn’t even want to claim it.
However, I went to the clinic, and what a surprise I got when, instead of seeing a simple and concise 0, a larger number appeared, which I did not understand. I asked, scared, what it meant, and thank God, I was pregnant.
Our son arrived, our hope, our dream. That morning sadness was transformed into the greatest joy a human being could have felt. It was a collective joy because my loved ones had lived our story step by step, they knew every last detail of my life. That day will never be erased from our memory, from our hearts, and from our souls.
Everything changed around us, and the story of Susana began, our princess Susana, who today is a happy girl, who fills every corner of our home with joy.
The magic of conceiving a child is so great that we never cared about the sorrows and sadness we went through. So, we tried again to have our second child, and then our princess Sofía arrived.
My husband was a little reluctant to have a second child because Susana was a very picky eater since she was born, and this completely changed his life, but we knew that our family was not complete without Sofía, so I visited my doctor again to put myself back in his hands. My husband agreed, but this time we would not go through so many treatments.
Things were easier because Susana already existed, and that was a great encouragement, because seeing her walk, cry, laugh, hug me, with just her look I felt that there was a very great hope, and without thinking about it, I did all the treatment with all the love in my soul.
Now we are a family with two daughters, five and two years old. We see them grow, they illuminate our daily lives with their smiles, their cries, their achievements. Nothing compares to the love and happiness we share.
I hope that our life testimony serves many couples who, like us, dream of starting a family. I know that sometimes it is difficult, that you go through moments of uncertainty that we would not want to live through, but the support of the couple is the engine for everything to go well. So, encouragement to all who start with this dream. Having a child is so great and indescribable that everything you have to go through is little for the love you are going to receive.
